Parents Breaking Up

Family separations are one of the worst things people ever have to go through in their lives. As soon as the parents break up, there's the bitterness and anger that surges into it, the kid's minds being f**ked with and the confusion of what they should do.
Some parents are crazy enough to start getting their kids involved, like my parents did. They brang me and my siblings into the whole fight and we are now messed with and as confused as ever. We know nothing will be the way it was, but having to put up with the arguments etc, it's killing us. Its like all the happiness is gone as soon as we're at either houses. Yeah you can have fun with one parent, but in the end the other parent misses out. I feel guilty when that happens and i hate hurting other people.
When i decided to live full time with my dad, i was fine. I was happy and i was having fun. I didnt want to go to my mums because of what she did. It's now been 2 months since i was at her place. Well right now i'm at mums. All last night she screamed at me and i screamed back. I cried and cried so much. I dont know what it was over. All i know is that i didnt want to be there. I had a different point of view on things and she didnt want to listen.
As soon as i argue about what i want or do what i want (about living arrangments etc) I end up hurting someone or more than one person in one way or another. It hurts so much to know that. So if i play by everyone else's rules, i wont end up hurting anyone. But that also means that i'll have to live as an unhappy person just so others can have their happiness.
I'm so confused and unsure of what to do. I dont want to hurt people but i also want to try to be happy.
If anyone has any suggestions, that'd be good

Books and Feelings

Ever been so wound up in a book that you get emotional over it. I'm currently reading Crazy For You by Jennifer Crusie and i'm very into the book. Best book i've read so far. To sum up what's happened so far:

A girl called Quinn finds a stray puppy and decides to keep it. However, her boyfriend does not a approve and thinks of it as a rat. Quinn goes to school (as she's an art teacher) and while she's gone, her boyfriend (Bill) drops the dog off at the pound. Quinn doesn't agree with the idea of pounds and is furious when she finds out what he's done. Bill never listens to her and thinks he can always get what he wants.

Quinn finally decides to break up with Bill and with the help of her best mate Nick, they move her into her mum's house until she can find a place of her own. She finds a house and moves into it. In the meantime, her best friend Darla is having trouble 'getting it on' with her husband, Bill is plotting against Quinn, and her best mate is falling for her.

Just after she's comfortably moved in, Quinn is fianally happy. Bill breaks in while Quinn is gone and steals her spare key to the house to get it cut so he has one for himself. He lets her dog out of the back gate and calls the pound on it. Luckily for Quinn, Nick saves the dog before it got picked up by the pound. Bill goes over a few days later and lets the dog loose again and puts the pound on it, saying that it's bitten a man. Quinn finds out later that night and is furious but the pound wont let her take it out and says it has to be destroyed.

Quinn turns to Nick for help and together they bust the dog out of the pound. When they get back to Quinn's house, her mother admitts that she's a lesbian. Nick also pulls a move on her, kissing her and feelings her up. They are interrupted by Quinn's dad who rang the door bell. Her dad got kicked out of the mum's house.
Soon after Quinn's dad arrives, Nick tells Quinn that he shouldnt have kissed her and that it was because of her hair. He doesnt want to ruin their relationship. But truth is, the both of them both want to be together, but only Quinn admits that.

It's an awesome book. I recommend it to anyone who likes romance, dognapping, stalkers, sabotage and secrets.

The point of all this is that ive been very wound up in it and ive almost thrown the book against the wall in some points. Especially the part where Bill called the pound on the dog. I'm cried in some parts and i've smiled in others. I get very emtional in some books. It's like i'm there. But anyway, it's such a good book. MUST READ!!